well that is done..i actuaslly spent a little time on my yard. unfortunately i have neglected it...yet another part of home ownership that is just not my forte...yet. the yard was kinda dried out, not that it looks like i live in a trailor park, but that it was unmaintained. kinda upsets me because i have a corner house and the people on all of the other corners...the other thre...they all have perfect lets go putting on a green golf coarse front yards...but they are all retired or old so i guess i can't really com[plain too loud. i actually have other tghings on my plate...or i like to think that i do. so i decided to get some scotts kentucky bluegrass seed, since last time i got seed it was farm and fleet big bag o deals seed. yeah..you get what you pay for. or at least if you pay more it comes with a waurentee...ok that was a horrible spelling job....
kaelyn's ear is draining...found out as we were sitting at mc donalds and just before she went to go play i took a look. that was kinda fun for her..she got another dog happy meal...amazing what things make her happy. oh yeah...i bought her a dress at target..when she was trying it on, she had to get lost in loking at herself in the mirror. you know if i was able to do her hair in any way other than up, down, and a pony tail...i bet she would be happy as can be. suprisingly her mother sent her to school today with a skirt on. it is the first time that she has done that, so it was a bit shocking, but you can tell that kaelyn is not used to it, since it is half up or up more than it is down...which was kinda funny...she goes to the bathroom at mcdonalds..by herself..but comes out with her dress stuck in her underware. looked really cute, now you know if a grown woman did that, she would be thought of as retarded.
other than that...oh.....i almost forgot.. as we ar sitting there, welpl i was sitting watching her play and she was playing, this little boy comes in. had to be no more than five years old, but his head was shaved, except in the back where it was down to the middle of his back. umm...i was flabergasted..how could a person send their kind out looking like that...it was like something you would only see on jerry springer.

i just took a shower and was thinking about this...how wierd this is that i could never ever write anything down but i am kinda enjoying this. i guess i kinda feel like doogie hooser...i think that is how you spell it.
i have always said my life is an open book. i will tell anyone anything that they ask. life is way too short to keep secrets, however loyalty is sometying much different. telling what you want to tell is one thing bnut when you sell someone out, that is not acceptable. nope..not at all...
but on a lighter note, i am kinda excited about tonight..i am off of work, even though i have to work tomorrow...but then i am off all weekend...i am not sure if it is awesome or sucky, awesome that i have off from friday morning till monday morning...kinda wish that i had a woman that i could say..grab your stuff...lets jump on the motorcycle, and go have coffee in seattle....never done that before, but i bet it would be fun to do..or at least drive around wisconsin....either way rto just get away would be great, but knowing the weather here it probably will rain.
anyways tonight..i am going out to see shaun again over at the chancery in wauwatosa, and going to again try to squeeze a dj'ing job out of him for weddings. i really think i would be an awesome dj, it is just up rto him to get my a job. but that is not what i am excited about, it is that i ..on sunday night..i tried a song that christy asked me ot try, and oh my goodness, it sounded amazing. i have always had "trashy women" by confederate railroad down, and second came stone temple pilots song, "plush" ( ok that enough with the punctuation..and where the hell is spell check...ifg anyone reads this they might think i am retared....guess that is the price you pay for not using all of your finges but still typing close to 100 words a minute.)
but anyway she had me sing an alabama song, ...dixieland delight..and wow did it sound god. i am excited ot go sing it tonight ...se how it goes over. probably a million times better than amazing by aerosmith...wow was that a disaster..a few more of those and i might never sing again. so i better choose my songs carefully. i don't want ot flal int oa country only type karokee singer.
ok gotta go get kaelyn....i sur do hope her ear is not draining. i am so tired of dealing with these ear infection draining problems.

well here i am again..so far i am keeping up with this..i think. today i got home...sadly to find howie waiting by the door. i feel so bad for him when i work a two days in a row, but i guess that is the price you have to pay. it will be nice when that day comes that i get married and finally can have the dog i have always wanted. i always havwe thought i wanted a beagle that wouyld be named snickers. funny name, but i think it to be kinda cute. ...but then there is always that name..dog.. pronounced dee-oh-gee....gets funny looks when peop.le realize it.

so i was strong..i was tough..but i broke down today. i told myself i would not to go back to yahoo personals due to all the painful memories of the past, but yet i pulled the trigger. so now i have a month of abuse, but really i am so very tired of being single.
when things ended with julie, i had a long talk with my dad..and as everyone that knows me knows, i can almost live and die through his recommendations. i don't know how it got to that point in my life, where his opinion is so very valuable to me, but i am fighting tooth and nail to get my independance back and make my own decisions.
buyt anyway when things ended we talked and he kinda let me in on a secret that some people are not meant to be alone, and it is ok if i was one of those people. i have always hated being alone, especially being raised a only child, but lately i have really felt the weight. see julie was ...well everything i needed but i was too immature to actually give up my hard-headedness and realize that nobody is perfect. granted she did have her flaws, and a few of those flaws were ones that really pushed me, like jumping to conclusions, and having a much much much lower energy level than me, but i could of delt with ity had i just realized all the good that i was giving up if we ened it....but i think that sometimes things happen so that you can become a better person, and boy did i grow. kinda took the walls down a few feet to better get in touch with what i want now.

so anyways i got home..thankfully my living room is clean..it sure makes it so much better to come home to a clean house than to see projects staring you in your face. of coarse there are always fifteen thousand projects to do, and i am sure that if i can't find another project, i will make one up...but there really is not much i can do with kaelyn running around. she is so awesome at helping me clean...i remember when i was going to trade the motorcycle in, and the guy from house of harley came to check out the softail, we had been cleaning the bathroom all morning, really cleaning..like with toothbrushes around the toilet, really getting that room to shine...and when he came of coarse i had to go outside to show him the bike, so she came out to play on the swing..and of coarse after like five minutes she was ready to go back inside. i told her to go ahead, since i knew my mom was heading over and figured she would be ok fir a litle bit. well my mom took about thirty miuntes, and when she finaly did get there..she waked in and kaelyn had gone back to cleaning. such a sweetheart..she tries so hard. she gets such a bum deal not having her mother and father together, but i have always said thattwo parents that are happy individually are better than two parents together miserable. funny though, after all she has adapted better than any othe child i have ever seen. now if only i can work on gher patience...but then she does after all have my genes in her, and we all know that i am a bit touched ...lol...

well i finished dinner, and i am kinda excited about this new blogging system. i think it will be great system to try.
so we ate dinner at the firehouse, and of coarse aterwards i am always up for a little simpsons, but tonight i am a little bit more interested in this new form of typing. ever since we lost the internet at the firehouse i have been kinda hankering to get my typing back on track. when i first started with a computer i was a hunt and pecker...and no i am not being gross. but i would hunt and peck for the letters. i still don't use all of my fingers because i once actually tried to get the system to learn, and after a few hours i realized that i was better off just typing the way i do. at work everyone thinks i am lighting fingers because of the speed i have ,but for me it is just normal.
tonight is american idol. i really am ont too crazy about television shows, but i have grown to like this season. i think that we will have the final four be the two rockers and the two women. after that i will probably watch "meet the fockers" which i have heard is full of potty humor, but i would rather watch it here at work than to waste time at home. speaking of at home, i brought my lawnmower in to work today. thankfully i got it running but i still have to get it running right. i cant wait till i am able to getit running right and i am able to pull it once and hear it start.

The beginig
Mood:  lazy
this is the first attempt at trying to establish a "online diary". this should be very interesting since i suck at writing things down. the first time that i was asked to write a diary, or to keep a log of things, it was in my social class, i think macro economics...we had to write about a news article every day during the semester that iw as in the class. well needless to say i tried to do it and as you know i ended up getting very far behind because i couldn't keep focused. i passed the class, but only because i ended up at the last minute writing about a fifteen or twenty different last minute papers.